I don't write about Alice much on this blog. I do that elsewhere. Some of you know that already. Today is 6 months since she was born. And tomorrow is 6 months since she died. 6 long months. 6 short months. 6 months of grief and a sadness that I could have never imagined.
My life is a little odd - I seem to have 2 of them. One here in the happy world of sewing and puppies and crafting and Minnie and learning to knit. And the other life where I have friends with dead babies and we write and we talk and cry and scream and go about our day looking fine but, feeling like we want the earth to swallow us up.
I am not mad. Its just how it is.
While I sew and craft and take care of Minnie and struggle to cast on, I think of Alice and what we have lost and what could have been.
And I am sure I will do this everyday for the rest of my life.