Wednesday, 17 September 2008

the saddest of times and the sweetest friends...

Although she will always be 'Buttons,' we named our little girl Alice. Alice Buttons in fact.

I am still in a blur, packing boxes and crying and feeling like it didn't really happen. Often I think that Alice is warm and safe inside me. And then I realise she is not. Then I remember that she is dead.

Family and friends have been wonderful. People I have never met and perhaps never will have sent their best wishes. Flowers have arrived from dear old friends and darling friends close by have taken such wonderful care of us and our darling Minnie. Friends have written such beautiful words.

Our lives will never be the same again.


Mary Beth said...

I am so sorry you have to go through this. How incredibly painful for you to know she is no longer safe inside you. Hug your sweet Minnie and be kind to yourself.

Jackie said...

Oh Rach. The numb forgetting after a tragety is normal and awful, sweetie. It does fade. You will wake again, sweetie.
Please know that I am thinking of you all day and in the dark of the night (to cover for time-zones;))
Please be gentle to yourself. Ask for help. Support. Quiet.
Again, please, let me know what I can do to always, Rach, I wish you were down the street.


Kate said...

Such a gorgeous name. I have been thinking of you, hugs to you all.

tiff said...


Keep writing, keep talking it through.

Alice is a beautiful name, Buttons, so endearing.

I know it's hard when the world keeps moving and you just want it to stop and mourn your little baby with you. It should stop. A little soul is gone and of course, you as her mother will be broken. Be gentle with yourself, my friend.

E and T said...


I am so sorry for the loss of your precious baby girl Alice. I am deeply saddened by this tragedy.

You will be in my prayers.

Lots of love

Amber Cardozo said...

Thinking of you guys lots and wishing you love and warm thoughts.
Hope you are ok.


Jessica said...

My heart continues to ache for you. Know that you are in my thoughts.

Anonymous said...

Hi Rach, Alice is such a beautiful name. Have been thinking of you during this time and hoping that your doing ok.(searching for your fabric... with no luck yet). Taniaxx

Selina said...

Rach, I am so terribly sad for you. I am just so sorry ....

Hot Belly Mama - taking it all back said...

I am so sorry you have to go through this.... that's all I can say. Having lost a baby myself, nothing anyone says really help. Lots of hugs your way.

Sarah Epstein said...

I am so sad to read of your loss. I have not checked into your blog for some time and just visited your Etsy shop. I was intrigued to see what you've been up to and so devastated to read your sad, sad news about your beautiful Alice Buttons. I'm so sorry.
Sarah xx